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He’s back…

When sir sends you this, your knickers are instantly wet xx

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Time to reset…

Things have been a little off for some time, Sir and I have struggled to have time alone together and it has taken its toll. I have been feeling very lost and pretty lonely. I have had doubts about our future and felt very insecure.

I have to say that it hasn’t been all bad, Christmas was lovely and we had lots of time together, but we were somehow a little ‘off’. The normal boundaries of our relationship were disappearing as was the spark. If I am honest I was beginning to think that things had run their course and this next chapter would end with Sir finding someone else, loving them instead of me. It was like I used to be the ‘prized’ possession, the special thing that he owned, by somehow I had become just another belonging.

I tried to address this and I tried to make things right but it just seemed impossible, I felt like everything I tried just make the distance between us even greater. Despite the loving him deeply it seemed as though I just couldn’t make him happy, not happy like before, he didn’t look at me the same and didn’t seem to have that want for me, nor I for him. any romantic gestures seemed to paper over the cracks but not fix them.

This week we were lucky enough to get away, just for one night, but sir took me to a really beautiful place away from all our stresses and worries. It was wonderful and I can’t tell you how brilliant it was for us to have some time back in our bubble. I had missed it so much. Obviously there was plenty of sex, was good to be able to let go, although I am not sure that I really excite him like I used to.

I am hoping that this time together will help us to get things back on track, back to where we used to be. I love him with all my heart and crave his attention, and time. I desperately need him to own me like before, to belong to him again, I need him to crave me like before, to be proud of me and to be his most favourite possession.

He is the most wonderful man I have ever known and I can not bare to think of a life without him.

My Master, my love, my world.

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The wonder of you…

You text me,

And I feel wanted,  

You call me, 

And I feel excited, 

You shop with me, 

And I feel spoiled.
You look at me, 

and I feel desired,

You smile at me, 

And I feel happy.

You say my name, 

And I love the sound.
You hold my hand, 

And I feel calm,

You touch me, 

And I feel excited,

You ask me a question, 

And I feel like I matter.
You laugh with me, 

And I feel happy,

You brush my hair, 

And I feel special,

You listen to my worries, 

And take them away.
You sit beside me, 

And I feel I belong, 

You perv over me, 

And I feel sexy,

You spank me

And I feel grateful.
You touch me, 

And I feel a tingle,

You kiss me, 

And I feel weak at the knees,

You fuck me, 

And I feel full.
You punish me, 

And I feel owned,

You say you love me, 

And I feel loved,

You breathe next to me, 

And I feel whole.
You use me,

And I feel owned, 

You chose me,

And I feel proud,

You stay with me, 

And I feel safe, 

You hold me close, 

And I am complete.
You say you’re proud, 

And I feel honoured, just to be yours. 

I love you sir xxx

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How do I? 

How do I show my Dom just how much I love him? How can I possibly show my devotion, respect and love. 

It’s hard to feel so deeply for someone and not have the first idea how to make them see it. I am totally head over heels in love with him. I just worry that he doesn’t know just how important he is to me and. How much I love and respect him. How much I appreciate his attention and affection, as well as the spankings of course. 

He is my soulmate and I am so lucky that he has taken me as his possession. I could burst ! I thought writing on here might help to get it out, but sadly not as it’s him that I want to know. I just wish he could be in my mind and heart for just one minute to see how much he makes my life better and how much I love and respect him. 

My darling Dom that I just worship and adore, the love of my life. 

Tonight I will count my blessings and dream of seeing him tomorrow. To smell him, breathe the same air and be by his side, where I belong.

X

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An average weekend…

An average weekend, well it wasn’t. It was better. Master stayed at my house during the week and of course he used my holes, but playtime has been lacking lately. Things have just been too busy. 

Saturday morning I got up early like a good girl as I had promised to get to masters house before he went to work. I do chores on a Saturday morning. I got there just in time. 

I walked into the kitchen and removed my clothes. He kissed me and fingered my pussy. I went to the bedroom and managed to tempt him to use my holes briefly before he left. I was desperate for him. He kissed me goodbye and left, he was late. I wanted his cum but there was no time. 

I went to the window, naked and flashed him as he drive away.  I carefully too my collar from the drawer and put it on, then I found my harness, I couldn’t wait to get it on. It felt wonderful. I clamped my nipples and clit. I live my clit clamp it looks so pretty, master brought it for me. 

I began to clean, I was soaked, I thought it was time to tempt master so I sent him a photograph. Then I put in my normal cleaning outfit over the top, it’s a maids outfit. I needed something else, so I put my metal balls inside, they felt nice as I moved around. 

Jobs completed and sir returned to find me kneeling in the doorway, he kissed me it was wonderful. Then he took a present from a carrier bag, a kong dog toy and a dog bowl. I followed him to the kitchen. 

I am sure you can imagine what happened next my eggs were served in the bowl on the floor which I was instructed to eat after he played with my holes and gave me some piss to drink. 

He used me over and over, punished me with the belt that I had left out for him, gaged me, abused and fucked me till he had cum three times. It was just what I needed. Masks, and kink. He is so clever, he always knows what I need and what to do. He knows best. 

Eventually he cuddled me and gave me love , he allowed me to play with him which led to another two orgasms for him and two more for me. I am so spoilt! He looks after me. 

What a wonderful start to the weekend, in the afternoon we spent time together shopping and just being next to each other. I feel at my best when I am by his side. It’s where I belong. 

We spent the rest of the weekend together, I live just breathing the same air as him. I love and crave his attention. I need him. Never before have I wanted a man like this or loved a man so deeply. 

What a wonderful weekend, I belong to him, he owns me, everything is as it should be.

X

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Additional rules…

Sometimes I wonder, how other submissives cope with the boundaries and rules enforces by their Doms. 

At times I struggle, and I wonder if others do too. Even though most of the rules that my master tells me to live by are things that I can happily do, today’s inspection for instance, but there are some that I find incredibly difficult. An example of this is anything financial, at the moment we don’t have any rules relating directly to finances, however my master has decided that we should review and update our contract. I have been thinking, as instructed, if there are any rules that I would like to add. I wondered if I should suggest that there should be a limit on how much I may spend without first seeking his permission. This seems like a very good idea to me, however there is still a part of me that liked to keep my finances a little private. I have nothing to hide but I feel very uncomfortable and a little upset discussing my financial situation with him. I don’t want him to be disappointed in me. Maybe it’s a small part of independence that I am just not ready to give up, I guess if we lived to get her or shared bank accounts it would be different. Does this make me a failure as a submissive? Does this mean that this lifestyle is not for me? 

I wonder if there are other submissives who have similar issues. I love my master deeply and am devoted to him, yet there is a tiny part of independence that I am not sure I will ever be able to let go.  It’s not that I don’t trust him, I guess it’s just a little security for me. I think I will leave it a while longer before I suggest a spending limit or any other financial rules. I am sure that there will be other additions to our contract that I can suggest. 

I will continue thinking. I want to help improve our relationship, to help it grow.

He is my master and my most trusted friend.

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