Girls like me…

Am sick of it all, am fed up of trying to keep everybody else happy, am sick of thinking about what to do for dinner every night and everyone leaving it to me. On the odd occasion they do bloody have an idea or cook I am supposed to be eternally grateful, who said it was my job anyway? I sick of working as hard as I do for peanuts and to still struggle to pay me bills each month. I am fed up that none of the romantic dreams you ever had as a young girl came true for me, what did I do wrong? Everyone else gets the man the house and the happy family with days out. What do I get ? I get to struggle each month to make ends meet an occasions where I haven’t eaten as I do t have anything, or not being able to afford my chosen sanitary wear so have to resort to wearing what a friend brought hot me to use after an op.

What did I do so wrong ? I try to make people happy and to be considerate. All I wanted was a simple happy life. Instead a constant financial struggle and no future.

What’s the point ? There must be more, at least I hope there’s more. Maybe one day I’ll be the girl swept off her feet…if only.

Once again I’ll count my blessings and that will have to me enough because… things like that don’t happen to girls like me



Deeper consideration…

When sir comes to my family’s house I know he does it for me, just as I do for him. The difference is that I have to go with him as it is what he wants me to do. Over time I have formed relationships with his family and I do enjoy their company, I could actually go so far as to say I like being part of their family. I hope that I am, as I live them dearly. He doesn’t have to come to mine, I do tell him that of course I respect his decision of he chooses not to come. But he does. I appreciate it.

I am not sure that he feels the same love for my family as I do for his, but he spends time with them for me, because he loves me, and that’s enough.

He is giving and kind. I love that he makes so much effort, despite being a Dom, he knows me so well and cares that I am happy. That’s why I can trust him, and rely on him.

My Dom, my world, the love of my life.



Time to reset…

Things have been a little off for some time, Sir and I have struggled to have time alone together and it has taken its toll. I have been feeling very lost and pretty lonely. I have had doubts about our future and felt very insecure.

I have to say that it hasn’t been all bad, Christmas was lovely and we had lots of time together, but we were somehow a little ‘off’. The normal boundaries of our relationship were disappearing as was the spark. If I am honest I was beginning to think that things had run their course and this next chapter would end with Sir finding someone else, loving them instead of me. It was like I used to be the ‘prized’ possession, the special thing that he owned, by somehow I had become just another belonging.

I tried to address this and I tried to make things right but it just seemed impossible, I felt like everything I tried just make the distance between us even greater. Despite the loving him deeply it seemed as though I just couldn’t make him happy, not happy like before, he didn’t look at me the same and didn’t seem to have that want for me, nor I for him. any romantic gestures seemed to paper over the cracks but not fix them.

This week we were lucky enough to get away, just for one night, but sir took me to a really beautiful place away from all our stresses and worries. It was wonderful and I can’t tell you how brilliant it was for us to have some time back in our bubble. I had missed it so much. Obviously there was plenty of sex, was good to be able to let go, although I am not sure that I really excite him like I used to.

I am hoping that this time together will help us to get things back on track, back to where we used to be. I love him with all my heart and crave his attention, and time. I desperately need him to own me like before, to belong to him again, I need him to crave me like before, to be proud of me and to be his most favourite possession.

He is the most wonderful man I have ever known and I can not bare to think of a life without him.

My Master, my love, my world.



The wonder of you…

You text me,

And I feel wanted,  

You call me, 

And I feel excited, 

You shop with me, 

And I feel spoiled.
You look at me, 

and I feel desired,

You smile at me, 

And I feel happy.

You say my name, 

And I love the sound.
You hold my hand, 

And I feel calm,

You touch me, 

And I feel excited,

You ask me a question, 

And I feel like I matter.
You laugh with me, 

And I feel happy,

You brush my hair, 

And I feel special,

You listen to my worries, 

And take them away.
You sit beside me, 

And I feel I belong, 

You perv over me, 

And I feel sexy,

You spank me

And I feel grateful.
You touch me, 

And I feel a tingle,

You kiss me, 

And I feel weak at the knees,

You fuck me, 

And I feel full.
You punish me, 

And I feel owned,

You say you love me, 

And I feel loved,

You breathe next to me, 

And I feel whole.
You use me,

And I feel owned, 

You chose me,

And I feel proud,

You stay with me, 

And I feel safe, 

You hold me close, 

And I am complete.
You say you’re proud, 

And I feel honoured, just to be yours. 

I love you sir xxx