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Additional rules…

Sometimes I wonder, how other submissives cope with the boundaries and rules enforces by their Doms. 

At times I struggle, and I wonder if others do too. Even though most of the rules that my master tells me to live by are things that I can happily do, today’s inspection for instance, but there are some that I find incredibly difficult. An example of this is anything financial, at the moment we don’t have any rules relating directly to finances, however my master has decided that we should review and update our contract. I have been thinking, as instructed, if there are any rules that I would like to add. I wondered if I should suggest that there should be a limit on how much I may spend without first seeking his permission. This seems like a very good idea to me, however there is still a part of me that liked to keep my finances a little private. I have nothing to hide but I feel very uncomfortable and a little upset discussing my financial situation with him. I don’t want him to be disappointed in me. Maybe it’s a small part of independence that I am just not ready to give up, I guess if we lived to get her or shared bank accounts it would be different. Does this make me a failure as a submissive? Does this mean that this lifestyle is not for me? 

I wonder if there are other submissives who have similar issues. I love my master deeply and am devoted to him, yet there is a tiny part of independence that I am not sure I will ever be able to let go.  It’s not that I don’t trust him, I guess it’s just a little security for me. I think I will leave it a while longer before I suggest a spending limit or any other financial rules. I am sure that there will be other additions to our contract that I can suggest. 

I will continue thinking. I want to help improve our relationship, to help it grow.

He is my master and my most trusted friend.

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The importance of obedience…

There are times when my master tells me that I am ‘being bratty’. This usually happens when I am being disobedient, and displeases master. 

It is important for a sub to obey her Dom for many reasons, after all how can you make decisions and guide someone that does not do as she is told. A D/s relationship is based entirely on the Don being in control, it’s a huge responsibility. Not only does a Dom have to make tough choices but he also has to look after the well being of his sub, his most treasured possession.

Obeying my master is a way that I can show respect and devotion, after all if I don’t respect his choices in life how can I completely submit to him? After all it’s a natural thing for the man to be in control isn’t it? It’s not a new idea, in fact it’s quite old fashioned. What were the traditional marriage vows? Love honour and obey! 
Submitting and respecting his wishes sexually is the easy part. I happily give my body to him to do with as he pleases. My holes are actually his, to use as he pleases, when he sees fit. He may inspect my body when ever he sees fit. I belong to him and he can do as he wishes with me. As for everything else, I have to trust him and hope that he will always have my best interests at the centre of his decisions. It is this trust that enables me to obey.

Like I said when I am ‘bratty’ master is displeased, he views disobedience as bad behaviour. As you can imagine displeasing master carries consequences, the severity of my punishment is determined by how badly I have behaved. I am grateful l that he takes the time to correct my behaviour and gives my punishment careful consideration, whether it’s O day denial, forced orgasms, standing in the corner, degradation, spanking by hand or crop, an enema or the most distressing of all, an unhappy Dom. I don’t like to make him unhappy. 

I love my master deeply and want to make him happy and proud, for him to treasure me, look after me. I must be obedient and live by his decisions, if I don’t I am sure he could easily find someone else that will. I couldn’t stand that. I will try hard each day to listen carefully to him and show him devotion by doing as I am told. He is a wise man and I am so lucky to have him in my life, my purpose is to serve him and make him happy. 

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Bring your sub to work…

It’s been a long time since I have written on here, so much has happened. I have shared the most wonderful summer with my master, we have spent a huge amount of time together, my life be for him has grown deeper that I ever thought possible. I have grown to rely and depend on him in every way and I long to be close to him constantly.  I am maybe a little too attached! 

One of my favourite days was when master took me to his work to help him do some jobs. I loved the fact that he was not embarrassed to take me there, and really enjoyed being with him, although I am not sure how helpful I really was.

The time passed quickly and before we knew it the afternoon had passed, so we packed up to leave. Suddenly master shut the door and ordered me to get under his desk. He sat in his chair and undid his trousers, I happily sucked his delicious cock. I have wanted to do this for such a long time, my pussy was very wet, and very very hungry.  I found the thought that someone may walk in on us scary and arousing at the same time. 

Master slowly pushed back his chair, ‘get up, bend over’. His words excited me, was he actually going to fuck me over his desk! The thought flashed through my mind, I loved it, I became instantly wetter if that was at all possible. I stood up, Master pushed me over, lifted up my dress and pulled my knickers to one side. Before I could take in what was happening his big hard cock was inside. He was fucking me hard, filling my greedy slut cunt and claiming me for his. Oh fuck it was so incredible, I couldn’t help it I came. I came right there on my masters cock, bent over his desk. 

He withdrew and made me wait for the rest till later in that evening. As we left his work he stopped to talk to a colleague, my knickers were so wet I felt sure that they could tell. I am realising what a slut I am, as the thought that they might know was arousing. What we did was risky and I loved it. Of course it would I am a cum slut. His cum slut.

I am going to leave it there, as I have a wet pussy and master moved ‘O’ day to today, I can’t wait to pump my clit and masterbate. I like the way it looks and feels when it’s pumped. My master is waiting for a photograph, I must not disappoint him.

My master, my love.

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Cleaning…

It’s been a while, things a have been… I’m not really sure how they have been. Sir and I have been distant, I have had doubts about his feelings for me. I began to think that maybe he was bored of me and that our time together was coming to an end. I felt like had nothing left to offer him, nothing new, nothing worth wanting. I still loved him but we just couldn’t be the way we were.

This weekend I was feeling in a rut and we were bickering all the time. I was bored and feeling very inadequate as a girlfriend, mother, daughter, as a person. I was feeling pretty worthless. 

I have no idea how my darling man did it,but he did somehow he just makes everything better. He changed things. He gave me a reality check, he made me see how I was making all of us unhappy. I knew I had to take action, rekindle that spark that was dying. After all I need to be his possession, his obsession. I need him to want and love me.

So, today I went to clean his home. I clean for him once a week. It’s was after work and I was feeling f a lot happier after he fucked me yesterday. So I dressed up in my uniform to clean. 

He was still at work so I decided to send him a couple of suggestive photographs (one of my footwear). Hinting, hopefully tempting him to want me. Just like I used to do. He liked them. This spurred me on. 

So I posed for a couple of ‘porn style shots’, to print out and made sure my knickers were suitably wet before  leaving them under the pillow of his freshly made bed.

Now I have left my knickers under his pillow many times, but never photographs. 

I left and returned home. I could only hope that this had returned things to normal. Where he is my Dom and I am his sub. He wants me in every possible was you can want a person, and I crave his attention and approval. His love is what I need. He makes everything better. I also crave his ownership, his cock and being used for his pleasure. 

I need him. He said he was pleased that he loved the photographs. I will sleep happy tonight and await our next encounter.

My Dom, my love. 

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Awaiting correction…

Master has been so loving, but I have seriously overstepped the mark.

I snapped at him earlier, I was stressed, too many things to do and only one pair of hands. I do not find it easy to ask people to do things for me. He was here and being so patient as he knows I have so much going on. He is being wonderfully supportive, I’m not sure how he feels about what’s going on, he hasn’t said and I don’t want to pry. I worry. I hope that he feels I am making good decisions. Any change in my life affects him, and all I want is to be with h m and make him happy.

Anyway I snapped at him earlier, it wasn’t his fault, I know it was unacceptable to talk to sir like that, even though I was just moaning, not really directly at him, he felt it was. I can understand why. I feel ashamed of my behaviour, it needs correcting. 

I hope that he still wants me enough to do so.

I would be lost with out him.

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The wonder that is him…

He knows me best, yet somehow he still surprises me with his patience and kindness.

He is wonderful, understanding, accepting, gentle, funny, thoughtful, wise, my best friend, handsome, sexy, strong, controlling when I need guidance, demanding, sexy, my soulmate. I have no secrets from him, he knows the worse things about me, and he is still here. He is my world and I want to spend my life with him, devoted to him, loved and wanted by him always. 

I found the one. 

How many people get to say that ?

I am lucky.

I am his, always. 

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