Bdsm, Submissive

An average weekend…

An average weekend, well it wasn’t. It was better. Master stayed at my house during the week and of course he used my holes, but playtime has been lacking lately. Things have just been too busy. 

Saturday morning I got up early like a good girl as I had promised to get to masters house before he went to work. I do chores on a Saturday morning. I got there just in time. 

I walked into the kitchen and removed my clothes. He kissed me and fingered my pussy. I went to the bedroom and managed to tempt him to use my holes briefly before he left. I was desperate for him. He kissed me goodbye and left, he was late. I wanted his cum but there was no time. 

I went to the window, naked and flashed him as he drive away.  I carefully too my collar from the drawer and put it on, then I found my harness, I couldn’t wait to get it on. It felt wonderful. I clamped my nipples and clit. I live my clit clamp it looks so pretty, master brought it for me. 

I began to clean, I was soaked, I thought it was time to tempt master so I sent him a photograph. Then I put in my normal cleaning outfit over the top, it’s a maids outfit. I needed something else, so I put my metal balls inside, they felt nice as I moved around. 

Jobs completed and sir returned to find me kneeling in the doorway, he kissed me it was wonderful. Then he took a present from a carrier bag, a kong dog toy and a dog bowl. I followed him to the kitchen. 

I am sure you can imagine what happened next my eggs were served in the bowl on the floor which I was instructed to eat after he played with my holes and gave me some piss to drink. 

He used me over and over, punished me with the belt that I had left out for him, gaged me, abused and fucked me till he had cum three times. It was just what I needed. Masks, and kink. He is so clever, he always knows what I need and what to do. He knows best. 

Eventually he cuddled me and gave me love , he allowed me to play with him which led to another two orgasms for him and two more for me. I am so spoilt! He looks after me. 

What a wonderful start to the weekend, in the afternoon we spent time together shopping and just being next to each other. I feel at my best when I am by his side. It’s where I belong. 

We spent the rest of the weekend together, I live just breathing the same air as him. I love and crave his attention. I need him. Never before have I wanted a man like this or loved a man so deeply. 

What a wonderful weekend, I belong to him, he owns me, everything is as it should be.

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Additional rules…

Sometimes I wonder, how other submissives cope with the boundaries and rules enforces by their Doms. 

At times I struggle, and I wonder if others do too. Even though most of the rules that my master tells me to live by are things that I can happily do, today’s inspection for instance, but there are some that I find incredibly difficult. An example of this is anything financial, at the moment we don’t have any rules relating directly to finances, however my master has decided that we should review and update our contract. I have been thinking, as instructed, if there are any rules that I would like to add. I wondered if I should suggest that there should be a limit on how much I may spend without first seeking his permission. This seems like a very good idea to me, however there is still a part of me that liked to keep my finances a little private. I have nothing to hide but I feel very uncomfortable and a little upset discussing my financial situation with him. I don’t want him to be disappointed in me. Maybe it’s a small part of independence that I am just not ready to give up, I guess if we lived to get her or shared bank accounts it would be different. Does this make me a failure as a submissive? Does this mean that this lifestyle is not for me? 

I wonder if there are other submissives who have similar issues. I love my master deeply and am devoted to him, yet there is a tiny part of independence that I am not sure I will ever be able to let go.  It’s not that I don’t trust him, I guess it’s just a little security for me. I think I will leave it a while longer before I suggest a spending limit or any other financial rules. I am sure that there will be other additions to our contract that I can suggest. 

I will continue thinking. I want to help improve our relationship, to help it grow.

He is my master and my most trusted friend.

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Bring your sub to work…

It’s been a long time since I have written on here, so much has happened. I have shared the most wonderful summer with my master, we have spent a huge amount of time together, my life be for him has grown deeper that I ever thought possible. I have grown to rely and depend on him in every way and I long to be close to him constantly.  I am maybe a little too attached! 

One of my favourite days was when master took me to his work to help him do some jobs. I loved the fact that he was not embarrassed to take me there, and really enjoyed being with him, although I am not sure how helpful I really was.

The time passed quickly and before we knew it the afternoon had passed, so we packed up to leave. Suddenly master shut the door and ordered me to get under his desk. He sat in his chair and undid his trousers, I happily sucked his delicious cock. I have wanted to do this for such a long time, my pussy was very wet, and very very hungry.  I found the thought that someone may walk in on us scary and arousing at the same time. 

Master slowly pushed back his chair, ‘get up, bend over’. His words excited me, was he actually going to fuck me over his desk! The thought flashed through my mind, I loved it, I became instantly wetter if that was at all possible. I stood up, Master pushed me over, lifted up my dress and pulled my knickers to one side. Before I could take in what was happening his big hard cock was inside. He was fucking me hard, filling my greedy slut cunt and claiming me for his. Oh fuck it was so incredible, I couldn’t help it I came. I came right there on my masters cock, bent over his desk. 

He withdrew and made me wait for the rest till later in that evening. As we left his work he stopped to talk to a colleague, my knickers were so wet I felt sure that they could tell. I am realising what a slut I am, as the thought that they might know was arousing. What we did was risky and I loved it. Of course it would I am a cum slut. His cum slut.

I am going to leave it there, as I have a wet pussy and master moved ‘O’ day to today, I can’t wait to pump my clit and masterbate. I like the way it looks and feels when it’s pumped. My master is waiting for a photograph, I must not disappoint him.

My master, my love.

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Awaiting correction…

Master has been so loving, but I have seriously overstepped the mark.

I snapped at him earlier, I was stressed, too many things to do and only one pair of hands. I do not find it easy to ask people to do things for me. He was here and being so patient as he knows I have so much going on. He is being wonderfully supportive, I’m not sure how he feels about what’s going on, he hasn’t said and I don’t want to pry. I worry. I hope that he feels I am making good decisions. Any change in my life affects him, and all I want is to be with h m and make him happy.

Anyway I snapped at him earlier, it wasn’t his fault, I know it was unacceptable to talk to sir like that, even though I was just moaning, not really directly at him, he felt it was. I can understand why. I feel ashamed of my behaviour, it needs correcting. 

I hope that he still wants me enough to do so.

I would be lost with out him.

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Challenging times…

Things have been challenging lately, both sir and I have been unwell.  We have hardly had time together, that creates a distance. It’s hard to be submissive to someone you hardly see. It makes me feel a little lost. 

The distance leaves room for doubt and insecurity to show their ugly faces. I want to be with my master, at his side where I belong, but sadly commitments and illness have not allowed us to have time together. 

Tonight he told me how he felt and what he planned to do, it was lovely to read, and made me happy.But then, once again the text conversation was cut deed. I know that sir is feeling unwell And tired, and the wonderful things he said but somehow I can’t help but feel worried. I worry that I have annoyed my master, or worse still that he is bored of me.  I can’t stop thinking about it and I wonder if I am right for him. I will probably be punished for thinking that, I know that I am not allowed to be negative but I am human after all, and surely I am only concerned because I care, that can’t be a bad thing, can it? 

I love being owned but sometimes, when I feel insecure I struggle. Is it wrong to have doubts about a submissive lifestyle?

I go to bed with a racing mind and a heavy heart.

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Comforted… 

I am sick, and not in the way you’d expect. I’m so cold, my master is not here. I miss him so very much. 

I do have his top though, a top that I put on after a hot bath, he wore it the other day, it smells of him. I put it on and feel comforted. I have him close, I am with his other things. It’s where I belong. 

Wrapped up in his scent I will rest. I will dream of daddy.

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I need him…

As the weekend draws to a close I am thinking about my master. I miss him terribly. I have had such a lovely time with him that I didn’t want it to end when he went home earlier. 

Yesterday he picked me up, he had ordered me to be masterbating when he arrived, of course I happily obliged. I was so desperate to please him, he licked my pussy and let me smell his delicious cock and suck it a little. Eventually I managed to tempt him enough so that he pounded my greedy pussy for a while. He didn’t cum, he stopped. That made me even more desperate.

We went out and I got to be exactly where I belong, by his side. I feel so proud when we are out together and he holds my hand tight. It makes me feel so special. My knickers were wet all day.

We got back to his in the early evening and he cooked for me, he spoils me. I love it when he looks after me, he takes good care of his things. Finally bedtime, it was late, we had been busy. Master ordered me to change my tights for my slut tights. These are literally tights with slut written all over them. Once again he made me masterbate, then he pounded away eventually flooding my pussy with delicious cum. I love it, I rubbed it all in, fucking myself with a huge dildo while sir watched. I came hard. 

This morning I was spoiled again, he let me suck and kiss his cock, then sit on it. My pussy was very sore from last night, it hurt in the best possible way. I came, it was hit a good thing as I hadn’t asked permission and he hadn’t instructed me to. I got carried away. He was cross. 

I sat in his face, master likes a dirty pussy. I sucked his cock and pushed it deep when he came. Mmmm breakfast.

I was punished for my earlier mistake, he hit me so hard with the crop the mark turned purple instantly. I thanked him. I was sorry, he shouldn’t have to waste his time correcting my poor behaviour. 

I thought of him while I rubbed tonight. I just need him all the time.

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