Submissive

The wonder of you…

You text me,

And I feel wanted,  

You call me, 

And I feel excited, 

You shop with me, 

And I feel spoiled.
You look at me, 

and I feel desired,

You smile at me, 

And I feel happy.

You say my name, 

And I love the sound.
You hold my hand, 

And I feel calm,

You touch me, 

And I feel excited,

You ask me a question, 

And I feel like I matter.
You laugh with me, 

And I feel happy,

You brush my hair, 

And I feel special,

You listen to my worries, 

And take them away.
You sit beside me, 

And I feel I belong, 

You perv over me, 

And I feel sexy,

You spank me

And I feel grateful.
You touch me, 

And I feel a tingle,

You kiss me, 

And I feel weak at the knees,

You fuck me, 

And I feel full.
You punish me, 

And I feel owned,

You say you love me, 

And I feel loved,

You breathe next to me, 

And I feel whole.
You use me,

And I feel owned, 

You chose me,

And I feel proud,

You stay with me, 

And I feel safe, 

You hold me close, 

And I am complete.
You say you’re proud, 

And I feel honoured, just to be yours. 

I love you sir xxx

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Bdsm, Submissive

How do I? 

How do I show my Dom just how much I love him? How can I possibly show my devotion, respect and love. 

It’s hard to feel so deeply for someone and not have the first idea how to make them see it. I am totally head over heels in love with him. I just worry that he doesn’t know just how important he is to me and. How much I love and respect him. How much I appreciate his attention and affection, as well as the spankings of course. 

He is my soulmate and I am so lucky that he has taken me as his possession. I could burst ! I thought writing on here might help to get it out, but sadly not as it’s him that I want to know. I just wish he could be in my mind and heart for just one minute to see how much he makes my life better and how much I love and respect him. 

My darling Dom that I just worship and adore, the love of my life. 

Tonight I will count my blessings and dream of seeing him tomorrow. To smell him, breathe the same air and be by his side, where I belong.

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Bdsm, Submissive

An average weekend…

An average weekend, well it wasn’t. It was better. Master stayed at my house during the week and of course he used my holes, but playtime has been lacking lately. Things have just been too busy. 

Saturday morning I got up early like a good girl as I had promised to get to masters house before he went to work. I do chores on a Saturday morning. I got there just in time. 

I walked into the kitchen and removed my clothes. He kissed me and fingered my pussy. I went to the bedroom and managed to tempt him to use my holes briefly before he left. I was desperate for him. He kissed me goodbye and left, he was late. I wanted his cum but there was no time. 

I went to the window, naked and flashed him as he drive away.  I carefully too my collar from the drawer and put it on, then I found my harness, I couldn’t wait to get it on. It felt wonderful. I clamped my nipples and clit. I live my clit clamp it looks so pretty, master brought it for me. 

I began to clean, I was soaked, I thought it was time to tempt master so I sent him a photograph. Then I put in my normal cleaning outfit over the top, it’s a maids outfit. I needed something else, so I put my metal balls inside, they felt nice as I moved around. 

Jobs completed and sir returned to find me kneeling in the doorway, he kissed me it was wonderful. Then he took a present from a carrier bag, a kong dog toy and a dog bowl. I followed him to the kitchen. 

I am sure you can imagine what happened next my eggs were served in the bowl on the floor which I was instructed to eat after he played with my holes and gave me some piss to drink. 

He used me over and over, punished me with the belt that I had left out for him, gaged me, abused and fucked me till he had cum three times. It was just what I needed. Masks, and kink. He is so clever, he always knows what I need and what to do. He knows best. 

Eventually he cuddled me and gave me love , he allowed me to play with him which led to another two orgasms for him and two more for me. I am so spoilt! He looks after me. 

What a wonderful start to the weekend, in the afternoon we spent time together shopping and just being next to each other. I feel at my best when I am by his side. It’s where I belong. 

We spent the rest of the weekend together, I live just breathing the same air as him. I love and crave his attention. I need him. Never before have I wanted a man like this or loved a man so deeply. 

What a wonderful weekend, I belong to him, he owns me, everything is as it should be.

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Submissive

Additional rules…

Sometimes I wonder, how other submissives cope with the boundaries and rules enforces by their Doms. 

At times I struggle, and I wonder if others do too. Even though most of the rules that my master tells me to live by are things that I can happily do, today’s inspection for instance, but there are some that I find incredibly difficult. An example of this is anything financial, at the moment we don’t have any rules relating directly to finances, however my master has decided that we should review and update our contract. I have been thinking, as instructed, if there are any rules that I would like to add. I wondered if I should suggest that there should be a limit on how much I may spend without first seeking his permission. This seems like a very good idea to me, however there is still a part of me that liked to keep my finances a little private. I have nothing to hide but I feel very uncomfortable and a little upset discussing my financial situation with him. I don’t want him to be disappointed in me. Maybe it’s a small part of independence that I am just not ready to give up, I guess if we lived to get her or shared bank accounts it would be different. Does this make me a failure as a submissive? Does this mean that this lifestyle is not for me? 

I wonder if there are other submissives who have similar issues. I love my master deeply and am devoted to him, yet there is a tiny part of independence that I am not sure I will ever be able to let go.  It’s not that I don’t trust him, I guess it’s just a little security for me. I think I will leave it a while longer before I suggest a spending limit or any other financial rules. I am sure that there will be other additions to our contract that I can suggest. 

I will continue thinking. I want to help improve our relationship, to help it grow.

He is my master and my most trusted friend.

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Bring your sub to work…

It’s been a long time since I have written on here, so much has happened. I have shared the most wonderful summer with my master, we have spent a huge amount of time together, my life be for him has grown deeper that I ever thought possible. I have grown to rely and depend on him in every way and I long to be close to him constantly.  I am maybe a little too attached! 

One of my favourite days was when master took me to his work to help him do some jobs. I loved the fact that he was not embarrassed to take me there, and really enjoyed being with him, although I am not sure how helpful I really was.

The time passed quickly and before we knew it the afternoon had passed, so we packed up to leave. Suddenly master shut the door and ordered me to get under his desk. He sat in his chair and undid his trousers, I happily sucked his delicious cock. I have wanted to do this for such a long time, my pussy was very wet, and very very hungry.  I found the thought that someone may walk in on us scary and arousing at the same time. 

Master slowly pushed back his chair, ‘get up, bend over’. His words excited me, was he actually going to fuck me over his desk! The thought flashed through my mind, I loved it, I became instantly wetter if that was at all possible. I stood up, Master pushed me over, lifted up my dress and pulled my knickers to one side. Before I could take in what was happening his big hard cock was inside. He was fucking me hard, filling my greedy slut cunt and claiming me for his. Oh fuck it was so incredible, I couldn’t help it I came. I came right there on my masters cock, bent over his desk. 

He withdrew and made me wait for the rest till later in that evening. As we left his work he stopped to talk to a colleague, my knickers were so wet I felt sure that they could tell. I am realising what a slut I am, as the thought that they might know was arousing. What we did was risky and I loved it. Of course it would I am a cum slut. His cum slut.

I am going to leave it there, as I have a wet pussy and master moved ‘O’ day to today, I can’t wait to pump my clit and masterbate. I like the way it looks and feels when it’s pumped. My master is waiting for a photograph, I must not disappoint him.

My master, my love.

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Awaiting correction…

Master has been so loving, but I have seriously overstepped the mark.

I snapped at him earlier, I was stressed, too many things to do and only one pair of hands. I do not find it easy to ask people to do things for me. He was here and being so patient as he knows I have so much going on. He is being wonderfully supportive, I’m not sure how he feels about what’s going on, he hasn’t said and I don’t want to pry. I worry. I hope that he feels I am making good decisions. Any change in my life affects him, and all I want is to be with h m and make him happy.

Anyway I snapped at him earlier, it wasn’t his fault, I know it was unacceptable to talk to sir like that, even though I was just moaning, not really directly at him, he felt it was. I can understand why. I feel ashamed of my behaviour, it needs correcting. 

I hope that he still wants me enough to do so.

I would be lost with out him.

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Challenging times…

Things have been challenging lately, both sir and I have been unwell.  We have hardly had time together, that creates a distance. It’s hard to be submissive to someone you hardly see. It makes me feel a little lost. 

The distance leaves room for doubt and insecurity to show their ugly faces. I want to be with my master, at his side where I belong, but sadly commitments and illness have not allowed us to have time together. 

Tonight he told me how he felt and what he planned to do, it was lovely to read, and made me happy.But then, once again the text conversation was cut deed. I know that sir is feeling unwell And tired, and the wonderful things he said but somehow I can’t help but feel worried. I worry that I have annoyed my master, or worse still that he is bored of me.  I can’t stop thinking about it and I wonder if I am right for him. I will probably be punished for thinking that, I know that I am not allowed to be negative but I am human after all, and surely I am only concerned because I care, that can’t be a bad thing, can it? 

I love being owned but sometimes, when I feel insecure I struggle. Is it wrong to have doubts about a submissive lifestyle?

I go to bed with a racing mind and a heavy heart.

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