Submissive

The wonder of you…

You text me,

And I feel wanted,  

You call me, 

And I feel excited, 

You shop with me, 

And I feel spoiled.
You look at me, 

and I feel desired,

You smile at me, 

And I feel happy.

You say my name, 

And I love the sound.
You hold my hand, 

And I feel calm,

You touch me, 

And I feel excited,

You ask me a question, 

And I feel like I matter.
You laugh with me, 

And I feel happy,

You brush my hair, 

And I feel special,

You listen to my worries, 

And take them away.
You sit beside me, 

And I feel I belong, 

You perv over me, 

And I feel sexy,

You spank me

And I feel grateful.
You touch me, 

And I feel a tingle,

You kiss me, 

And I feel weak at the knees,

You fuck me, 

And I feel full.
You punish me, 

And I feel owned,

You say you love me, 

And I feel loved,

You breathe next to me, 

And I feel whole.
You use me,

And I feel owned, 

You chose me,

And I feel proud,

You stay with me, 

And I feel safe, 

You hold me close, 

And I am complete.
You say you’re proud, 

And I feel honoured, just to be yours. 

I love you sir xxx

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The importance of obedience…

There are times when my master tells me that I am ‘being bratty’. This usually happens when I am being disobedient, and displeases master. 

It is important for a sub to obey her Dom for many reasons, after all how can you make decisions and guide someone that does not do as she is told. A D/s relationship is based entirely on the Don being in control, it’s a huge responsibility. Not only does a Dom have to make tough choices but he also has to look after the well being of his sub, his most treasured possession.

Obeying my master is a way that I can show respect and devotion, after all if I don’t respect his choices in life how can I completely submit to him? After all it’s a natural thing for the man to be in control isn’t it? It’s not a new idea, in fact it’s quite old fashioned. What were the traditional marriage vows? Love honour and obey! 
Submitting and respecting his wishes sexually is the easy part. I happily give my body to him to do with as he pleases. My holes are actually his, to use as he pleases, when he sees fit. He may inspect my body when ever he sees fit. I belong to him and he can do as he wishes with me. As for everything else, I have to trust him and hope that he will always have my best interests at the centre of his decisions. It is this trust that enables me to obey.

Like I said when I am ‘bratty’ master is displeased, he views disobedience as bad behaviour. As you can imagine displeasing master carries consequences, the severity of my punishment is determined by how badly I have behaved. I am grateful l that he takes the time to correct my behaviour and gives my punishment careful consideration, whether it’s O day denial, forced orgasms, standing in the corner, degradation, spanking by hand or crop, an enema or the most distressing of all, an unhappy Dom. I don’t like to make him unhappy. 

I love my master deeply and want to make him happy and proud, for him to treasure me, look after me. I must be obedient and live by his decisions, if I don’t I am sure he could easily find someone else that will. I couldn’t stand that. I will try hard each day to listen carefully to him and show him devotion by doing as I am told. He is a wise man and I am so lucky to have him in my life, my purpose is to serve him and make him happy. 

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Bring your sub to work…

It’s been a long time since I have written on here, so much has happened. I have shared the most wonderful summer with my master, we have spent a huge amount of time together, my life be for him has grown deeper that I ever thought possible. I have grown to rely and depend on him in every way and I long to be close to him constantly.  I am maybe a little too attached! 

One of my favourite days was when master took me to his work to help him do some jobs. I loved the fact that he was not embarrassed to take me there, and really enjoyed being with him, although I am not sure how helpful I really was.

The time passed quickly and before we knew it the afternoon had passed, so we packed up to leave. Suddenly master shut the door and ordered me to get under his desk. He sat in his chair and undid his trousers, I happily sucked his delicious cock. I have wanted to do this for such a long time, my pussy was very wet, and very very hungry.  I found the thought that someone may walk in on us scary and arousing at the same time. 

Master slowly pushed back his chair, ‘get up, bend over’. His words excited me, was he actually going to fuck me over his desk! The thought flashed through my mind, I loved it, I became instantly wetter if that was at all possible. I stood up, Master pushed me over, lifted up my dress and pulled my knickers to one side. Before I could take in what was happening his big hard cock was inside. He was fucking me hard, filling my greedy slut cunt and claiming me for his. Oh fuck it was so incredible, I couldn’t help it I came. I came right there on my masters cock, bent over his desk. 

He withdrew and made me wait for the rest till later in that evening. As we left his work he stopped to talk to a colleague, my knickers were so wet I felt sure that they could tell. I am realising what a slut I am, as the thought that they might know was arousing. What we did was risky and I loved it. Of course it would I am a cum slut. His cum slut.

I am going to leave it there, as I have a wet pussy and master moved ‘O’ day to today, I can’t wait to pump my clit and masterbate. I like the way it looks and feels when it’s pumped. My master is waiting for a photograph, I must not disappoint him.

My master, my love.

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Cleaning…

It’s been a while, things a have been… I’m not really sure how they have been. Sir and I have been distant, I have had doubts about his feelings for me. I began to think that maybe he was bored of me and that our time together was coming to an end. I felt like had nothing left to offer him, nothing new, nothing worth wanting. I still loved him but we just couldn’t be the way we were.

This weekend I was feeling in a rut and we were bickering all the time. I was bored and feeling very inadequate as a girlfriend, mother, daughter, as a person. I was feeling pretty worthless. 

I have no idea how my darling man did it,but he did somehow he just makes everything better. He changed things. He gave me a reality check, he made me see how I was making all of us unhappy. I knew I had to take action, rekindle that spark that was dying. After all I need to be his possession, his obsession. I need him to want and love me.

So, today I went to clean his home. I clean for him once a week. It’s was after work and I was feeling f a lot happier after he fucked me yesterday. So I dressed up in my uniform to clean. 

He was still at work so I decided to send him a couple of suggestive photographs (one of my footwear). Hinting, hopefully tempting him to want me. Just like I used to do. He liked them. This spurred me on. 

So I posed for a couple of ‘porn style shots’, to print out and made sure my knickers were suitably wet before  leaving them under the pillow of his freshly made bed.

Now I have left my knickers under his pillow many times, but never photographs. 

I left and returned home. I could only hope that this had returned things to normal. Where he is my Dom and I am his sub. He wants me in every possible was you can want a person, and I crave his attention and approval. His love is what I need. He makes everything better. I also crave his ownership, his cock and being used for his pleasure. 

I need him. He said he was pleased that he loved the photographs. I will sleep happy tonight and await our next encounter.

My Dom, my love. 

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Awaiting correction…

Master has been so loving, but I have seriously overstepped the mark.

I snapped at him earlier, I was stressed, too many things to do and only one pair of hands. I do not find it easy to ask people to do things for me. He was here and being so patient as he knows I have so much going on. He is being wonderfully supportive, I’m not sure how he feels about what’s going on, he hasn’t said and I don’t want to pry. I worry. I hope that he feels I am making good decisions. Any change in my life affects him, and all I want is to be with h m and make him happy.

Anyway I snapped at him earlier, it wasn’t his fault, I know it was unacceptable to talk to sir like that, even though I was just moaning, not really directly at him, he felt it was. I can understand why. I feel ashamed of my behaviour, it needs correcting. 

I hope that he still wants me enough to do so.

I would be lost with out him.

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Challenging times…

Things have been challenging lately, both sir and I have been unwell.  We have hardly had time together, that creates a distance. It’s hard to be submissive to someone you hardly see. It makes me feel a little lost. 

The distance leaves room for doubt and insecurity to show their ugly faces. I want to be with my master, at his side where I belong, but sadly commitments and illness have not allowed us to have time together. 

Tonight he told me how he felt and what he planned to do, it was lovely to read, and made me happy.But then, once again the text conversation was cut deed. I know that sir is feeling unwell And tired, and the wonderful things he said but somehow I can’t help but feel worried. I worry that I have annoyed my master, or worse still that he is bored of me.  I can’t stop thinking about it and I wonder if I am right for him. I will probably be punished for thinking that, I know that I am not allowed to be negative but I am human after all, and surely I am only concerned because I care, that can’t be a bad thing, can it? 

I love being owned but sometimes, when I feel insecure I struggle. Is it wrong to have doubts about a submissive lifestyle?

I go to bed with a racing mind and a heavy heart.

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Comforted… 

I am sick, and not in the way you’d expect. I’m so cold, my master is not here. I miss him so very much. 

I do have his top though, a top that I put on after a hot bath, he wore it the other day, it smells of him. I put it on and feel comforted. I have him close, I am with his other things. It’s where I belong. 

Wrapped up in his scent I will rest. I will dream of daddy.

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